nuff said...

say what you want!

so inspired today..usually that means rebel like...

...Going on in my brain

So I think I'm cool with being single. A while ago I thought of what I would consider my perfect day, and when my little daydream ended I realized there was no man in my life. So then I tried to go back and see where one might fit , and there wasn't any space. This couldn't possibly be true could it? But I realized what I really want most is a very large comfortable bed in a very cozy comfortable home, with a smart polite and well adjusted child, a fulfilling job and time for myself.
Knowing me though, I know I need the D more than every now and then and I think it would be nice to have companionship on the days I don't want to be alone: a dinner date here and there, good phone convo, gifts (all girls want gifts from guys and the only ones that say gifts don't matter are the ones that get them all the time and the ones that don't at all). And as much as I want loyalty and a man that doesn't feel the need to stick his penis in every and any orifice he can find, I want a man who has his own shit to do. And while he adores me, he's not hung up on me but is also not elusive and evasive. Why must I be so complicated? I'll probably contradict all of this in an upcoming post.
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Cut through the bushes

Katherine McPhee Everywhere I Go

I cant go down this road again. It's winding, one side with a sign that says Dead End, the other a cul-de-sac. I'll have to cut thru the rose bushes and know the thorns can only do but so much damage and I will heal. I always do. Don't know why I think I won't. All champions have lost at some point. It's what makes the victory sweet. I'm a sore loser but I'll get over it.
So yeah...that's what I'l do.

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beauty randominity

sass is considering weekend jobs because lets face it...the 9-5 check just isn't enough. so i hopped on over to sephora (which i've been avoiding like homeless people on the train platform) to get an application. not sure if i'll apply, but i need to look at it and see if i'm so inclined to do so.. anyway the first display when you enter is the Harajuku Lovers perfume..the figurines are soo cute that i would love to get one just to have the bottle on my dresser (to keep my Fafinette company)..these 2 are my favorite my favorite




so anyway i picked up one of those sample tester sticks that was laying around on the display and smelled it (rather than spraying more into the air) and the scent i found on the strip was none of the harajuku perfumes. i ended up having to ask one of the sales people which perfume it was. You know sephora has a ton of fragrances so at first they looked at me like I was crazy but one of the ladies was able to direct me to the bottle of deliciousness that is Escada Moon Sparkle.
Upon first sniff, it is very sweet but then it simmers down to a nice musk (sandalwood) with fruity notes. They say its a summertime fragrance that can be worn any time of year and also describe the specifics of the fragrance here. I need it! So, it will go on the list with Miss Dior Cherie and some other ish I wanted. Also I'm all out of Coco Chanel Mademoiselle. Maybe I do need this job at Sephora to support my beauty products habit.

I also looked at some Laura Mercier tinted moisturizer but I didn't try any out on my face because i already tried some Makeup Forever HD Invisible Cover Foundation in #178 I believe. Love it!! It blended so beautifully and evenly AND easily and I didn't need much.*sigh* I'll be making the $40 investment sooner or later.

I need some money!

i was right

the bag is DVF, and it can be found here!

I met a guy

a few weeks ago. I was walking to the train station and he was crossing the street diagonally towards me. I glanced at him only because he was coming my way, but kept it moving. He was giving me the eyeball the whole time he was crossing the street but I wasn't feeling my hottest and generally don't make it a habit to talk to people in the street so i didn't return his gaze. I slow my pace so that he is now walking in front of me. And as I'm walking behind him I admire his "b boy" swag. Baggy but not too baggy jeans, white t and foam posits (my favorite sneaker for guys), blackberry curve in hand. I regret for a minute not giving him the greenlight but feel I have another chance as he is headed down into the train station also.

When I get into the station he is standing on line at the token booth and our eyes meet again, and this time I let my gaze linger (the greenlight). I remove one of the buds from my ear. "How are you doing he asks?" I answer; then he asks if I have a minute. I wait for him to buy his metrocard (he was like 4th in line), and I'm thinking to myself, damn, this better be good, I'm standing around waiting on a nigga?? But I'm also telling myself I have to be open minded seeing that I'm always complaining about not meeting men.

When we finally do make it through the turnstyle I don't have much time so I cut to it. Ask him his name and we exchange numbers. We introduce ourselves, and discover our work places are practically neighbors. He is giving me the nasty eye usually reserved for dirty old men in my world..like he might as well be licking his lips and rubbing his hands together..I swear I could see his fangs..not cool. But some people just don't know better. First thing he asks me about are my piercings and how many I have as he unapologetically grazes the entire surface of my body with his eyes...first flag goes up..I see where his mind is; he thinks I'm a freak. Then he asks where I live and if I live alone, and theres the 2nd flag (it normally wouldn't have because these are the types of questions u have to ask beforehand) then he proceeds to tell me how sexy I am and that he really likes my piercing and that he's aggressive and he hopes I can handle him.

Now I'm officially regretting giving him my number and want to snatch his phone and run for the hills. I tell him I really have to go now and reach to shake his hand. This motherfather while holding my hand circles his finger on my palm (you know, the 5th grade shit!). Now I'm mad at myself..I know better than talking to a dude on the street, and now this retard has my number.

I ran into him again the day before yesterday too.
I caught his eye, and as I was walking by him, I was thinking damn homeboy is kind of cute but he looks familiar, I wonder if its that dude. He had a hat on so I couldn’t tell. Anyway I get to the corner and I’m waiting for the light to change when he walks up next to me. Stands, and looks in my face. Tells me I should smile and not look so serious and I ask him why. Even longer story short, he says I look familiar but he didn’t recognize me and he forgot my name. He basically tried to re-bag me (turn off) before I told him we had met already. Then he goes thru the whole spiel about my piercings again…blah blah blah., says he’ll call, I pray he doesn’t.

There are so many other little things that went on in this conversation (like the fact that he told me he never really messed with a thick girl but he heard that they got it and gave my body another once over) that just really depleted my confidence in men to the point where I was sad when I walked away from him only because I’ve been exploring the philosophy that you attract back what you put out in the world. Could it be?

a sassy thing to say

"...they say you’re getting too big for your britches ’cause you went to America. Nope! I been this big in my britches, since I was a kid."
~estelle

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super fucking excited

i just got ne-yo's new album Year of the Gentleman. This is like the most anticipated album for me, I love the way he writes and I can' t wait to listen. maybe i'll do a reveiew or something, but I'm kind of biased and he could barely any wrong in my eyes (except on the style front) so we'll see.

i love a.l.t. for this

and if the bottom of that bag says diane von furstenberg, i love her too. i need a few of her wrap dresses in my wardrobe also!

p.s. i had a post for fashion rocks which i was supposed to post below, but i flaked out. it aired last night, and clips are all over the entertainment blogs, so i'll save my 2 cents 2 penny candies.

fashion rocks!

lol...t.m.i

i am laughing so hard right now because i feel like my body tries real hard to get me pregnant.. why i think this is funny, i don't know. i just noticed a few days ago, i was extremely needy...some people say horny. i don't. and i had to go ahead and make that call. well, send that text. but the need, the need was real! like i've never felt that way before. i don't even know how to describe it. so i got that taken care of, and then a day or so later when my body realized there was no fertilizing of eggs going on, she decided to release them. but as soon as this is over i may have to send another text cause uhhhh...ok ok im sorry , i know t.m.i.

he makes me want to cry just a little...