truly.madly.deeply

i turned 25 on monday.
..ordered some mac brushes from nordstrom as a birthday present from mi madre
went to see wendy williams with the bestie...
....found out she is pregnant with a boy. my first godchild/nephew
was hoping it was a girl, but soo not disappointed its a boy.....
......that love is amazing. i can't wait for her to experience that.
the hunt for thee stroller is on.......
........usually you don't feel a change with each birthday. but i feel it with this one
its an internal change.........
...........its a conscious change. absolutely intentional *cue dreamgirls, im changing*
its time for me to be who i want to be

im ready for a new tattoo and because of where i am mentally at the moment and where i want to be and remain i will go back to something i've wanted for a long time. when i was little i was sort of fixated with stars because it is so hard to draw one freehand. so when i would doodle it was always me trying to perfect a star. when i was 16 or 17 i was researching the 6 pointed star and its definition and symbolization has stood out to me ever since. i couldn't find the one i read then, but i understood it to essentially mean bringing down the things we hold in our higher level of consciousness and bringing up the things we hold in our lower level of consciousness thus causing the two to meet in the middle, creating balance. and it applied and appealed to me then, but its even more so prevalent and relevant now.

..not sure if i explained that so well so i found some other explanations that correspond..

Finding the dynamic balance between the inner and the outer seems to be one of the great tasks of our lives. And when the balance is found, the star is also perfect.

The heart chakra is the middle chakra in a system of seven. It symbolizes the two polarities of body and spirit as interpenetrating in perfect balance. The upward pointing triangle symbolizes matter rising into spirit. The downward triangle (similar to the ancient female symbol for birth) represents spirit descending into manifestation. To fully open the heart chakra we need to bring into balance the various aspects of our existence, such as male and female, light and shadow, mind and body, practicality and spirituality.

The Three Higher Planes--Atma (Infinity), Buddhi (Light) and Manas (Higher Intelligence) constitute the Higher Self. The Higher Self is represented by the triangle pointing upwards. Interestingly enough, everyone and everything in the Universe has the same three principles in their seven-principled bodies and this constitutes the principle of Universal Brotherhood. The triangle pointing downwards is representative of the lower self, the three principles of sensient life--the "breath of life" (which is a reflection of the Highest Principle), the Astral Body and the physical Body. When we come into existence, these two triangles are separated, the higher above the lower. In between is a single point of consciousness which represets the soul. The soul is the vehicle of our desires. If we desire the things of the lower principles, the fire of out soul is directed downward and, if our lower desires are strong enough, goes out. However, if we direct the fire upwards into our Higher Self, we receive the higher energies necessary to RAISE OUR LOWER SELF into harmony with our Higher Self. Thus the lower and Higher self become locked together in place in perfect Union by the principle of the soul. Thus we attain full consciousness awareness on ALL PLANES of the universe and he have, in effect, spiritualized our lower self, to the point where it has raised its energies into Union with the Higher.

that is all.