i wish a n!66a would!

I'd still be whoppin his little ass, he would wake up everyday for the next 3 months (and probably then some) to me whoppin his ass.



Get him into the system so they can get him some type of help. No, they want to get him into the system so that when his little bad a$$ does some other dumb ish when he's 15, they'll already have a file for him so they can throw the book at him or God forbid shoot him 50 times. And his grandmother should've beat his a$$ anyway, right there on camera. This is why people curse at children!

it is what it is...

Saw this over at Thee Mightee Afrodite's spot..here's what I'm about...

None of this is in any particular order

TEN random things about me:

1. my emotions rule me (not always a good thing, but I’m a cancer) it is what it is
2. sometimes I have to force myself to think with my brain, my heart is the default mechanism
3. I am not good with money
4. im an emotional shopper ^
5. and eater^^
6. fat and well dressed ^^^ lmao – wait, that’s not funny
7. I don’t like to take the garbage out
8. I didn’t want to go to college, I wanted to go to cosmetology school
9. im verbally abusive
10. people annoy the hell out of me, I want to move off this damn planet!

NINE ways to win my heart:

1. Be honest and sincere
2. Have an amazing sense of humor
3. Be beautiful – in my eyes
4. Love and respect women, especially your mom
5. Be very smart and knowledgeable
6. Have an amazing pipe game
7. Believe in God
8. Be ambitious and resourceful
9. be open to learning (the man that knows something knows that he knows nothing at all – e.badu)
   
   

EIGHT things I want to do before I die:

1. get married
2. have another baby
3. work for myself and be successful
4. be in a movie
5. see multi-millions or more in my bank account
6. publish this children’s book
7. buy my dream house
8. see my son grow up to be a wonderful man

SEVEN ways to annoy me:

1. talk too much
2. talk too close
3. invade my personal space
4. ask me too many questions
5. repeat yourself
6. only want or talk about sex
7. lie

SIX things I believe in:

1. There is a higher power
2. you reap what you sow
3. time is money
4. there is a thin line between genius and insanity
5. many true things are said in jest
6. for the most part, I control my destiny
   
   

FIVE things I'm afraid of:

1. holding myself back
2. my son getting hurt or worse (GOD FORBID!)
3. hurting or hindering my son in any way (sometimes mothers do the most damage)
4. the state of music will always be this bad
5. losing someone tragically

FOUR of my favorite things:

1. hearing my son say his bedtime prayers (truly the cutest thing ever!)
2. makeup
3. music
4. shopping

THREE things I do everyday

1. brush 2 sets of teeth
2. watch SVU
3. laugh

TWO things I want to do right now:

1. quit my job
2. go on vacation
   
   

ONE person I want to see right now:

1. My future husband
   
   

SICK, I'm so SICK.

i've got that feeling

that anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach. the nervousness you feel the night before a big day. well tomorrow is certainly a big day. its crazy that this case is not "in the bag" so to speak. police have gotten away more than a few times with killing innocent men in a barage a bullets. this one on a queen's street i walked on to get to the train station to go to work. i pray for justice for sean bell and his family especially his grieving widow (who has been the face of this case) and his children. i pray for justice for all the black men who have lost their lives at the hands of those hired to protect those very lives, and i pray for justice for all black men who walk these streets from various walks of life and are subjected to corrupt and polluted minds who happen to have a badge and gun .

Spring has Sprung

i was tempted to throw up foxy brown and kelis, candy, but i won't. fox is on my shit list right now.

took a long "lunch" yesterday and walked with the kids to get a manicure. The kids got manis and pedis, but i settled for just a mani cause i have a pedi spot that i will not stray from. you got to work sass' feet lmao...not like myra though...never that bad.


then we snuck back out for frozen yogurt..theres this spot called red mango..kinda like pinkberry, and they have things like cinnamon toast crunch, cap'n crunch, and fruity pebbles as toppings, and of course fresh fruit and some other ish..it was really good.

and then this morning *bats lashes* the man (along with idris elba) that lead me to the decision that i will no longer date any man under the age of 32 and does not have a little gray in his goatee, called me baby (in the most sexy way) and then told me i was beautiful. so because he is so gorgeous with his g.a.m (grown ass man) swag and acknowledged the effort i put into my look this morning, i gave him the upward glance (when you tilt your head down, look down, then gaze up), smiled, and said thanks, took my metro card, swiped it, and headed down the subway steps grinning like a fucking idiot. i've been told that i'm a flirt (tola), i don't think i am, but can see why its said. with him, i definitely am. that fool is fine! damn.

i also know to love his ass from a distance though. my judgment always seems to be questionable in this arena in my life. any man that i've kind of crushed on from afar or stated "i want him", i get him, and then him turns out to be the worst in some way or another. Nothing wrong with a little eyecandy though, so i'll be sure to be extra cute on the days i ride the train into the city, he deserves a little sweetness too for being so damn handsome.
...love a grown ass man. how much you wanna bet he's from brooklyn?
*singing* we like them boys up top from the bk!!*

...and because she's my babies' mother

...and I was trying to explain it to Tola a few weeks ago, and Belle made me think of it today...

The Warriors Reminder

I am awake
My mind is free
I am Creative
I love myself
My will power is strong
I am Brave
I practice patience
I dont judge folks
I give not to receive
I dont expect
I accept
I listen more than I talk
I know I'll change
I know you'll change
I'll hold on one more day
I start over when necessary
I create my own situations
I am cosmic
I dont have the answers
I desire to learn
I am the plan
I am strong
I am weak
I want to grow
I know I will
I take on responsibility
I hide myself from no one
Im on my path
Warriors walk alone
I wont let my focus change
Taking out the demons in my range...

-e.badu

Don't be a hard rock when you really are a gem just came to mind also.
Damn Lauryn, come back to us...a chocolate girl needs you *sigh*

The Players

THE VETERAN - the one i feel the most comfortable with, the one that does unspeakable things to hearts. make you wonder how you're still standing. The one I know, the one that knows me, the one that just does not work no matter what, but feels like its supposed to at times. Most familiar with all things. But like a war vet, has been thru some things that he cannot seem to get passed even while no longer on the battlefield. Its too bad smh....makes beautiful babies though .


MR. UNTOUCHABLE - like stolen goods, he belongs to someone else, can't touch 'em. He's not mine. So of course, he says all the right things, all the right things. He's been around longer than all the others, but can't seem to get his ish together either. He's also known as the Candyman, damn it's sweet. BUT I can't be what he needs of me, because I won't play second voluntarily. And he won't be what I need of him, because he already has priorities at home.
In a perfect world, we would be together. It seems we compliment each other well, understand where the other is coming from, and are pretty like minded. We just may be friends forever though. That's cool too.

THE NON PROMISE MAKER - wasn't even going to touch on this one, but why not be thorough. This one makes no promises cause he won't come thru on sh!t!!!! Actually no, he gets no shine here. NEXT!


PEST - the one that on sight of a single IM or text sends me into a fit of rage. LEAVE ME ALONE, DAMN!!! I thought I liked you at one point (I don't know what the hell I was thinking). Thank goodness, I realized I didn't, but he's still on it. We were never "together", there may have been a kiss shared, but I'll never admit to that. I never even opened up, and when that doesn't happen naturally for me, theres always a reason. Sooner or later that person reveals themselves as not worthy. This time was no different. There's actually more than one like this. It just may be that time to switch screen names...i haven't done that in a while hmmm. No hard feelings...just please go away.


SIMPLY NOT THE ONE - so sweet, so polite, so damn respectful. Cool enough, rude enough (yes I like them rude), just simply not for me. You can't force pieces from 2 different puzzles together, either pieces fit, or they dont. We don't. I think he sees that, but pretends that he doesn't. I definitely do, and have already turned the light out in that room. Stop calling me. We can be cool when we see each other...an email here and there....a random text... but please, stop calling me.